One day after having wanted to die and go be with Kim, a thought filled my mind: Do you really want to go to Heaven and spend eternity without having fulfilled your life’s calling? Don’t you want to take that with you to Heaven? Later I thought that if God answered my prayer to die, I would also have to face Kim in Heaven. Oh no. I imagined her meeting me at Heaven’s gate, and instead of greeting me, she might say, “Pete! What are you doing here? Get back there and fulfill God’s calling on your life!” I would…